fall for your type

... this one's for you Michael Shorter :)

the end. lol

save me

You came out of nowhere but came from right in front of me. You're exactly what i want the opposite of what he used to be. A smile, evolved into pure happiness instead of a worry hiding inside. Good is confusing because I must wonder why me. You're not "typically" so unfortunately, anything good right now is questionable. This is what he made me.

bill. boys club

I have came to the realization that I must eliminate people from my life... the useless people who are a detriment to my future, goals, and plans. By allowing myself get side tracked with them I am losing focus. A lot of people expect so much from me, so much I cannot give. And half the time they will not be satisfied and as a result be upset with me. I am not the type to do extra to please you... it simply is what it is. If I'm not compassionate enough I am truly sorry but I do not think I know how to be sometimes. (You) want the shirt off of my back and when I refuse you are angered. Please do for yourself first, just as any other human. You place yourself on a ridiculous pedestal where you believe as a friend I am obligated to do for you. And many times I will. But when I cannot you act as though it is my duty to do as you wish. I have a billion things I want to accomplish, if not more. I will not put my dreams on hold to take care of anyone - simply because no one is taking care of me. As much as you hate to admit it we are in the same exact boat.

paris morton

I am NOT a people person =/ I'm real outgoing, talkative, and friendly. So it confuses people. When it comes down to it, I rather just be in the crib alone. A lot of people cannot understand me or even why I'm like that &they always want me to change. Thanks, but NO thanks. I need to find someone who likes what I like. I cannot please people who don't have similar interests, we are NOT the same and never will be. I need you to understand me then accept me.

randomishness

Reverse psychology... yeah that doesn't work on me. I hate when people try this because all you're doing is making me disgusted. I'm not going to feel bad for something I didn't do, and on top of everything you not taking away from what you did. You making an already cracked mirror break into smaller pieces. This type of shit makes me just not fuck with people. Pointless-ish-ness.

starting all over

I can expect - I know I will definitely lose some friends. It happens... I know I'm not the easiest person to befriend. Mainly because when I meet you I don't believe that 'friends last forever'. So I don't even bother trying to meet the requirements. The few true FAMILY I have accumulated throughout the passing years are the onlyy ones who have made it that far into my heart. And they are alwaysss gonna be there regardless. I have learned to not hold on so tight to people because the next second they can easily be gone, either from my life or from the world. I don't expect much from people around me because I know they do not have the same mindset. Things I would easily do for them they would not return the favor and that's just reality. "Where were you when I needed you?"

put your records on

I would hate for you to take my kindness for weakness. Because a long time ago my kindness was my weakness. But we've came to a point where (for you) i have no kindness left. Only common courtesy, and there's barely any of that. You act shocked when I treat you as though you are a stranger but over time that is exactly what you have become. So now I'm brand new. And you wonder how I can do this, how can I act like this. Well how could you do that ??? and that, and that, and finally that. So now if you ask me "how can I act like this" you won't need an answer because you're the answer.

firecrack

I have temper. One word, one action could deviate my every move from that point on. If I had to chose my worst quality that would be 2nd on my list. Anger is triggered so quickly...

my world my words

Ughhh... I firmly and absolutely do not believe in the term "friend". I want to erase it from the world. I think somewhere along the line my definition of a friend conformed to the equivalent to an associate. Being a "friend" is an in-between state of being a best friend or being a no one. The grey dimension is a way of pretending to like someone more than you do. If I call you a friend, that does not necessarily mean I like you. It may just mean I know you, maybe we've spoken from time to time and that's it. So don't get ahead of yourself cause now you irritating. "Family"... or realistic version of friends consists of a few people. That's all I need. Even though we may not all have the same blood you are on different level as regards to respect, trust, and etc.

eagle i

No one has ever known me... not the realll me, sad to say &&; most likely no one ever will. Knowing me would mean you would have to know what I've been through. I do not hide much information from people, however i will not willingly sweep it throughout a room. The details that I have kept to myself for many years have created another me. Honestly, the person I am and the person I should be are totally different. I can see right through my own transparent exterior and I worry that everyone else can too. I continue to do what I'm "supposed to" and "what I'm expected" and the real me is forced to subside, hidden under a flimsy camouflage. One person I didn't expect could see me. Surprise.